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It's almost 3am and I cant sleep. I just finished my last final of the semester and Im feeling pretty confident I did at least relatively well, so thats good. It's December 11th, Christmas is 2 weeks away, and I leave for a trip back home in 11 days. I guess its just that time of the year again, but recently I find myself reflecting on the events that have happend since December 11th 2007. God, it doesnt seem that long ago at all, this year just flew right by. 

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              ITS 2:56AM AND SOMEONE IS, FOR REAL, CALLING ON OUR HOUSE PHONE!! DOUBLE- U TEE EFF!!?

Anywhoo, time for the breakdown- some super nostalgic moments from this crazy year!

     1. First, we have the near and dear Chaz. for those who dont know, Chaz is my boyfriend. Weve been dating for a little over 7 months (though, apparently he says its been 10) Im not going into any vivid details about our relationship, being that this is the WORLD WIDE WEB and all, but he's a great guy and he makes me very VERY happy. Oh, and his friends hate me.

    2. This year has been one of self descovery. I found myself doing alot of reflecting this year (shocking, right?) about the choices ive made in my life. they havent all been good to say the least, but I wouldnt trade my experiences for anything else in this world. Ive learned so much from what Ive been through, and where ive been throughout that time. I felt like kind of a nomad for a while, I moved around alot, but no matter where I went I always seemed to find me there- a confrontation I wasnt yet ready for. I did it however, and I have to say, this year has been the best year of my life. it hasnt been the most exciting or fast-paced year, and Michigan still doesnt hold a candle to baltimore or new york, but i feel like those places contained me for almost exclusively superficial reasons. I built a life for myself in Michigan, a life of substance, and ontop of that I built a relationship with my father. I love my life, and baltimore will always be my retreat- my place to turn to when im lost, but for now Michigan is the place I call home.

   3. New Years: Dec 31, 2007/ Jan 1, 2008-
              Karl, Ramon, Andrew and myself spent a glorious evening at the backstreet. Good music, drag queens, and close friends- a recipe for good times, indeed. 'Course, I dont really remember much of  that night, but if I did, Im sure it would be a clear indication that it wasnt that great of a night anyway.

alright kids, Im pretty beat. Its time to jump into bed. more later

It's that time of the year again, folks! On the [way late]aftermath of fall fashion week, Im taking some time to review trends. For one, the cinched waiste is back in now, who knew? and some major colors this season will be deep plum and mustard yellow, preferably together I might add. Bright colors are also back- but only in moderation, always remember that you only want ONE signature bright in a given outfit. this works great for those who have that insane-patterned hand bag or shoe hidden in the back of the closet, but be mindful to not wear BOTH accessories in ONE outfit. With that said, Ill get to some pichazzz..


Jimmy Choo, how you taunt me so....




...and vintage will NEVER go out of style!!!
(its also a simple and affordable way to look chic ;) pay a visit to your local SalArmy!)
 





OH, also! Im making the executive decision to throw out a large portion of my clothes, I counted today and I have 357 articles of clothing in my closet. Not including accessories, shoes, or the well over 100 more items left in storage back home in baltimore. Its time for some serious cleaning of my closet. So if anyone can provide a warm and loving home for some very cute clothes, it would be greatly appreciated :)

An array of things have happened since I last posted- none of which I feel like talking about at the moment. Why, you ask, am I even bothering to be on lj if I dont feel like posting? Upon discovering the blog of a near and dear newcomer in my life, I realized how much Ive neglected my own blog. in other words.. I havent been on in a while and Im letting people know im still alive (and kickin'... sorta)! More to come!

xo Meaghan

Things have been alright lately. Schools going good. I miss everyone though! No wonder none of you are in Michigan for college, THERES NOTHING HERE! But, things are looking up! Im coming back to baltimore tomorrow at 11am sharp! Ill be in town until 4:30pm on Monday, so to all the MICA students of the world (or at least in the baltimore-metro area) definitely give me a call/ your address if you want to hang out. Ive been incredibly homesick recently so this trip came at a much needed time.

I was looking at old entries earlier today and I stumbled upon something that I still find to be uncompramisingly truthful. I wrote an entry about the near and dear Alexandra Buyalos, and how important a part of my life she was.

I wrote that entry maybe a year and a half ago I think? and its still as true as it ever was. I will never forget the day after my sister had her surgery. I was a wreck (as she knew I would be), and she was waiting for me in the front lobby at school with a pink teddy bear (whom I soon thereafter named Mr. Snuggles), the biggest and most comforting hug Ive ever recieved in my life, and the reassurance that I would never have to endure the pain of that whole experience alone. She is by far one of (if not THEE) most loyal and dedicated friends anyone could have, and those who have the priviledge of earning her trust would be wise to make every effort of maintaining it. Because I garentee youll never encounter an individual quite like Alex, and if you hurt her.. well, quite frankly, I'll have to kill you. shes an amazing person, whom I love dearly. even when we're like 1500miles apart, and actually dont really talk that often anymore, shes still someone I know would be by my side in 10 minutes flat if I really needed her to be.

So to Alexandra Buyalos: You are an IN-FUCKING-CREDIBLE human being. I love you so fucking much, and Ill undoubtedly spend the rest of my life trying to be half as good of a friend as youve been to me these past 4 years. If you need me, for anything, Im here. No matter what.

love always,
Meaghan

First I will start by saying just how much I love Kathy Griffin. yes. I love her alot.

Alright, I havent written in this thing for a hell of a long time and honestly, I dont intend to update on everything that has gone on since. If youre friends with me then you know what happened anyway, so posting about it just makes it redundent above all.

Next on the agenda- I FINALLY DROPPED MY ENGLISH CLASS! YES YES YES YES!!
you dont even understand how incompetent my teacher was. seriously it was awful. weve spent the last month searching through reference guides, we havent written a single thing, and considering its a class on "writing the college essay" id like to think the whole concept of.. oh say.. WRITING! might be pretty essential. My teacher is retarded, and so is my class. thats why I dropped it and thats all there is to it. woo!

Besides, now I have time to devote to the social groups Im in. and I like what Im doing.
I feel like my life is finally coming together. even though Ive had some pretty major set backs, Ive figured out what it is Im passion about and Im persuing it. thats all that matters. Im taking baby steps for now, but its only FOR NOW. ill get things moving and shaking in no time Im sure.

Im going back to Baltimore for a visit feb. 15th-18th, Im SO excited!
I miss everyone, and I definitely need to take a trip down to MICA to see everyone. let me know where you guys are staying so I can stop by!

for now I must away. frankly, I have shit to do.
tootles!

lately Ive been crying for no reason, fighting because I feel like it, eating everything in the house, sleeping all day, popping excedrin like an addict. and on top of that my face has been breaking out in a way that makes me look like Ive been doing crack since infancy. I thought I was going crazy. then today. it came. a catastrophy occured. that fucking bitch came 3 days early. what a dumb cunt! (no pun intended). the Big P. UGH! kill me. My sisters lizards died. I almost cried when I found out. then I realized I hated those things so why the fuck am I crying? hahaha. it ALLLL MAKES SENSE NOW!

SOMEONE WITH A TRUCK AND/ OR VAN DRIVE ME INTO SCHOOL TOMORROW SO I CAN BRING MY 6 FOOT CANVAS IN AND NOT FAIL

Prom dress anyone? OH HELL YES.

I realize this is alot to ask, but I dont want to spend the summer in Michigan- is there anyone willing to let me live with them for the summer?, I'll pay rent if need be.

God I hate this. 
Ive been getting into so many fights with my sister. 
Its really taking a toll on my nerves. 
I dont know what to do. We used to be like bestfriends. and then everything changed.
Im not saying this is bad, I mean, we were both in growing proccess, I guess thats why we were friends. but we've both found out who we really are, , and who we plan on becoming and were happy with ourselves, but unfortunately these people are polar opposites, Im talking RADICAL differences, that make any sort of coexistace quite impossible.
its hard because she represents everything I hate in a person, and vise versa in her cas as well. 
I still love my sister, I mean, shes my fucking sister. of course I do. Id still be willing to give up my life for her as much as I would have when we were friends. and Im sure well end up friends again, maybe not soon, but when were grown, im positive we will.
My biggest concern right now is how its affecting my mother. I can tell that our fighting is just killing her completely. I mean we do it constantly. She has a job she fucking hates with every ounce of energy she has, and then she has to come home from a shitty day to me and kaitie tearing eachothers heads off. I hate that. I know its something I can help fix. but its so fucking hard, cause everything she does just fucking drives me mental (again vise versa with her as well)
I just want things to get better
 

new year- new journal.
Im rethinking alot of things in my life